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welp…my daughter’s sperm donor’s girlfriend just had her baby…way early but apparently he’s okay….While I am glad the baby is healthy, I am really angry because she said cruel things when I had my daughter and while i was pregnant, she also recently started talking to me again because she wants the kids to know each other….that’s a really long rant I do not feel like typing right now….I really cannot figure out why I am so angry…it might be because her “little miracle” is the result of two VERY irresponsible people having unprotected sex….as was my daughter…but what makes her think he’ll stick around…he didn’t for his other 3 children….also they named him after a deceased friend, who once said he never wanted to be idolized after he died….I’m pretty sure a namesake is idolizing….I just…really can’t right now…. if anyone wants to try and cheer me up that would be great..
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Horseshoes, hand grenades and thermonuclear warfare
Sooooo…been awhile…whatever
I almost got to go to the Grand opening of a BDSM dungeon down the street from my house!!!! The promoters decided to postpone to a later to be announced date….ahhh…This may not seem like a big deal to some, but I have not been to a club since October 2009, and I have not bee away from my daughter for more than an hour or 2 for about a year….again, may not seem like a big deal, but I am a single mother with very little help in raising my daughter. She is high functioning autistic and more than a hand full….I go to school, online, but still it’s a lot of work, and somewhere in all of that I have to take care of Sam (daughter), keep the house clean, and try to keep the peace within my household of too many people that shouldn’t live together. I was so excited for this one night break, i would have gotten to put on make up, let my hair down, dress up and have good time for once….I am now under the belief that I do not deserve the break…that is another story about how I think I am a ad mother….doesn’t help when my mom told me I need to care more about my daughter….I could write a HUGE post about all of this but I am exhausted, it is 3:30am and i really want to go to bed„ but my hay fever medication seems to be keeping me awake….I am going to take a benodryl and fall over in my bed….
Pink Floyd- Wish you were here
The title is what I used to say after “almost only counts in….”
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Mercer's Poems: I Should Be Dead →
I don’t know whether you find changing your bed sheets irritating. I find it irritating. It seems to wear me out like no other household task. I look daft while doing it. I utilise the method whereby you turn the duvet cover inside out and pulling it over the duvet; it usually ends up with me…
