I almost got to go to the Grand opening of a BDSM dungeon down the street from my house!!!! The promoters decided to postpone to a later to be announced date….ahhh…This may not seem like a big deal to some, but I have not been to a club since October 2009, and I have not bee away from my daughter for more than an hour or 2 for about a year….again, may not seem like a big deal, but I am a single mother with very little help in raising my daughter. She is high functioning autistic and more than a hand full….I go to school, online, but still it’s a lot of work, and somewhere in all of that I have to take care of Sam (daughter), keep the house clean, and try to keep the peace within my household of too many people that shouldn’t live together. I was so excited for this one night break, i would have gotten to put on make up, let my hair down, dress up and have good time for once….I am now under the belief that I do not deserve the break…that is another story about how I think I am a ad mother….doesn’t help when my mom told me I need to care more about my daughter….I could write a HUGE post about all of this but I am exhausted, it is 3:30am and i really want to go to bed„ but my hay fever medication seems to be keeping me awake….I am going to take a benodryl and fall over in my bed….
Pink Floyd- Wish you were here
The title is what I used to say after “almost only counts in….”